on your death bed i hear you regret the things you didnt do more than what you did do, so feck it, get me a bottle lol jabbed some dec and test-e sunday, then sunday night i had some sniff, 1.5g, so didnt make gym today. It was free and strong so had to try, been months, and TBF that'll be it for a few months now. Took about 8 diaz to put me to sleep, so slept most of today, i think its sunday. in my defence saturdays all day Garage event was horrible. So much trouble. Was terrible. 800 people from every rough estate in Leicester all under one roof with hard Garage music, all coked off theyre tits. Door got rushed, then got threatened to be knifed before we smashed him outside when he wasnt with his 'boys'. He shit it once he realised hes on his own and got dropped, faggot! Hes a nob. This guy stabbed a few people outside a night club a few months back, only to then get jumped by those people and put into a coma, smashed him in properly, thought he'd learn but.... Soon as i saw his face drop after one of our Polish lads dropped him something instantly clicked in my head, hes nothing, threatens everyone when hes with his mates but on his own hes fuck all, so i absolutely unleashed hell on him, verbally destroyed him in front of everyone on the street, called him a pussy hole, twat, cunt, your feckin no one et. He tried to punch me but totally missed so when i went to go for him he backed right off. I was actually shaking with rage. What an absolutely cunt. And who came out to help him, no one, cus later we find the 20 lads he was with inside dont like him, hes one of those people that doesnt get an invite but tags along. So gives it stacks with his group, but one on one, he shrank, shit it big time. I now have zero fear of him. I cant wait to see him next. Gonna ruin him! Best thing was, later than night we dropped the Polish doorman off at a late bar for Eastern European people and our guy was head doorman there. 2am we got a phone call, this nob from before pulled up outside the venue, got out, saw the Polish guy who dropped him. The Pole then tapped a few other Poles on the shoulder and pointed at this guy, they all started to walk towards him and he jumped back into the taxi and fucked off quickly LOL. was a horrible day tho. 800 people from every rough estate with 6 door lads. Promoter got his arse chewed off by my boss as he had to come down with other units as 6 for 800 people is madness! Was bad last year but this year, 10x worse. I dont think our door firm will provide staff again, its not worth the hassle, let someone else deal with all the coked up scum. Worst shift ive ever done! 2pm start till 11pm with hard garage. So Solid Crew turned up, so was just a coked up mad house. Everyone sucking on balloons too. Fuck that again!